Fruzztration

I'm honestly really tired of everyone coming after my back. Springing things in my face only at the last minute. I always have to make erratic decisions. I cause distress to others, put them in a tight spot which i detest, all for you "greater" good. I have to face people and my dignity stands on a thin fine line. If you're so impatient about getting things done, just do them without me. I have responsibilites to fulfill, maybe you don't. So please, stop pressurzing me. I go feeling the worst sometimes because i have to much to face. I put on a facade, tell myself to be brave. I don't even wanna do this. Its something i hate, nothing productive but i have no other choice. Friends who i once thought were the greatest are now people i know i can never trust.
I'm sorry, i can't help but bear even the tiniest grudge.
I don't know why you did it but at least now, i know you're not worth my time.
Better l8 than never D.